ok, so ive really been wanting to have a place to blog private blogs but right now i'm going to be completely honest mostly about things that i dont even care to keep private. lol.
i love the disney channel. the new disney original movie makes me smile even if i only saw the last 10 minutes of it when the boy was happy he was friends with the other boy. if i had DVR i would record the new hannah montana episodes every weekend. When i got my new phone, "What time is it" from HSM2 was my ringtone.. until i became obsessed with Wicked. and i really really really want to go see the Hannah Montana and Miley Cyrus Best of Both Worlds 3D movie and am a little dissapointed that the Jonsas Brothers aren't part of it.
i got a myspace message today, from a boy i don't know. it said,
"ur truely beautiful, ur smile is truely enchanting,
and i love how the light catches ur eyes just right
and makes them sparkle, ur truely lovely"
and i must admit that i smiled... ok i'll admit even more... i smiled alot. even though i have no idea who the heck this boy is and its basically spam.... but according to his profile he is a "Christian" he has a picture of himself... maybe? and BarlowGirl together... and we actually have a "real" friend in common. not that i would pursue this in ANY way!!!!!!
i'm scared that if i go to this school for photography i still wont be good enough to make a career out of it. as much as i love looking at other peoples pictures of weddings and birthdays and engagements and all kinds of things they make me insecure. because will i ever be able to take pictures that are good enough to have people pay for? will school even be able to help that? and even if i can... do i have enough "people skills" to deal with.. people?
i've been reading in Exodus since in my daily bible thing you start at the begining in the begining of the year. and i have had the strongest desire to see the Prince of Egypt... i ordered it at the library [because ours is packed] and am probably going to watch it tomorrow night.
and then i think i'm going crazy. [alexis please still let me be friends with your daughter... i'll be normal around her i promise!] i have so many emotions and confusions going on right now that i dont even know where to turn. i want to talk but who do i talk to? and if i talk.. i may break my heart of stone and actually breakdown. i pray... but there isnt an immediate response... i dont even know what response i want! uuuugghhhh!!!
i do know that i love my puppy. who is sleeping on my lap.
Forever and a day
7 years ago
2 comments:
You are totally amazing. And I love your work--I really believe you can do something with it career-wise! People-skills do not necessarily have to be a natural talent--some of the best people had to learn to use them effectively. ;o)
And I hope you know that anytime you want to come by to talk, you are welcome to...I've been told I'm a good listener. =D
(And how much you want to bet that Alexis is going to come here shortly and say I stole her comment again? LOL)
She DID steal my comment.
And you can still totally be Phoebe's friend...;)
And now I'll be completely honest with you... You *are* amazing. I've always seen it. I saw it way back in youth. When I went to Nate and Hattie's wedding right after Eden's diagnosis, I was terrified. i didn't even know how I was going to talk to anyone... and *you* came to talk to me. You treated me like a normal person. And I know it wasn't easy. No one knew what to say and I had no idea what I needed to hear... but you made me feel at easy and comfortable.
Talk about people skills.
And you have a natural gift for catching moments no one sees.
You see your technical flaws but I see something more.
And to be perfectly honest, I have such guilt over all the awesome fee pics I get from you.
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