::happy dance::

so, i was going thru a box of stuff today and made 2 amazing discoveries.

1. i found my medical insurance card. YAY! that means new glasses for stacee!!

2. I FOUND THE 'WORSHIP MIX' CD!!!!!!!!! that is the best news ever!! i have been looking for it for forever!! and it is found!!! and it plays. i thought it would be scratched beyond all reason.. but it works!!! so excited.

now if only i could find my Bible... life would be complete.

albert einstein asked the question "am i, or the others crazy"?

we found or dvd remote so i have been able to finally watch my season 1 of criminal minds. so exciting!! i love it so. reid = <3

ive been pretty angsty lately. =[ im sorry. i think its because ive been working so much that i am getting overly frustrated with my coworkers. im beginning to see that people that i normally like really dont pull their weight and people that i normally dont like.. really irritate me! lol. i cant wait for saturday it will begin my first "normal" week in a month. praise God!

it may also have something to do with a lack of a certain caffeinated stimulant. LOL, you know how when you fast you are supposed to pray during meal times? well i pray when i start getting cranky... and thats much more often than i eat! HA!

in happy news, enchanted came out last week. i didnt see it in theaters but candice came over on wednesday and we watched it together. its so amazing! and then i got it from the library and watched it over and over and over. and i have the soundtrack in my car. yep im slightly addicted. "we shall be married in the morning!"

speaking of cars, i got a new one. not really a new one but my dads old one. i now drive a tan ford explorer that doesnt stall when i break! the volvo is going to stick around until susanna starts driving and then when she grows out of it... i think i'll turn it into a museum and leave it parked on the church parking lot for people to periodically visit... charge 50 cents to get in and then the money can go to pay for the parking spot. ive got it all planned haha.

my computer should be coming home tomorrow. i miss it so.

im am beyond angry!

ok seriously. when did the people on this planet decide to become totally ridiculous!?! i love my friends. i love the old ones ive known for years and i love the ones ive just gotten close with over the last few months and to see them being really just attacked pisses me off! especially when the "attacking" is coming through the mouths of "Christians".

i know im probably going to get called out on posting an "inappropriate" blog, but but its not only about what everyone thinks its about... its about so much more.

as ive been writing this one other thing came to mind... at the retreat it was spoken over us as the "insert whatever you want here" girls. that God has given us this relationship for a reason and we need to stand by each other in our times of trials. i wasnt expecting to need to stand so soon, and i hope im doing a good enough job standing...

and i will end with an appropriate time to curse.

seriously, F off satan!

carmel light frappuccino no whip with caramel on top.

for the daniel bible study beth moore encouraged us to give up "rich meats" for the first half of the study. [6 weeks] well... giving up rich meats isnt really a sacrafice for me because well, im not meats biggest fan. so i've been trying to think of things i could give up that would be meaningful to me.

i thought the internet... but one of my jobs is online and that would be a fail. lol. and then last night i had an epiphany.

so here is my offical declaration. i will not be going to starbucks for 12 weeks. i am not giving up coffee... no one would be my friend i would be to cranky LOL... just starbucks. meaning no going into a store and buying my beloved drink of carmely goodness.

it really is my desire to draw close to God in this time in my life and im really praying my sacrafice, no matter how small it is, will help take me to places i havent been in a long time with my Jesus. and i'm basically excited. [and only a tad sad!]

refraining from inserting embarassing womens retreat quotes here.

i dont really have much to say... but i feel like i need to say something.

i really had an amazing weekend. words cant describe how excited and unsure i was going into this retreat. it was the first time i have been somewhere expecting something from God in... maybe and sadly years? at least a year, singular. i desperately wanted something anything from God but i was scared. i was scared to be vulnerable to my Savior and in front of my friends.

aside from the "spritual" part i was so ecstatic to be going away for the weekend with friends. staying up with sarah and candice till 4:30 on friday night/saturday morning was amazing. we laughed and joked and even talked serious for a little while. it was really a great "bonding" experiance. the daytime hours were great too it was so exciting to have an almost unlimited amount of time to be together. there was no time constraints trying to shove bible study and catching up on the last 2 weeks of life before midnight because everyone has to work the next day. i loved it!

God really did open my eyes to something this weekend that i have avoided for so long that i really forgot that it was there. ive been trying to be so strong for so long that i forgot that i was broken... so very broken. But my God is Jehovah-Rophe: the Lord who Heals and i really am claiming that over my life.

now i just need to do the deciding. lol.

mind your "f's" and "s's"... oh heeeck no.

an update of last nights drama. it has been resolved. thank God! because i was so stressed about it that i had a dream i quit and then i was working at TEACHER SUPPLIES again!!! not a good dream. more of a nightmare.

one good thing resulted from my frustration. i started working out again. lol. i walked 3 miles yesterday and then i did weight lifting for 40 mintues tonight... maybe i'll start a routine out of my anger lol.

in other news right now i am watching the worst movie ever! 30 days of night. i told susanna it was gross but nooo she still wanted to watch it. so we have basically spent the last half of the movie [i tried to not watch it... but theres nothing else to do] deciding when it is ok to curse. if you're just sitting in a semi safe room and the vampires are no where near you it is NOT ok to say "s, s, s." but if you are being a diversion and running through the street trying to save your family and friends from the vampires it IS ok to say "come on out mother fers!" it is also OK to say "f off!!" if you are driving some hardcore tractor.. snow plow.. tow truck think trying to get away from the vampires. it is ESPECIALLY ok if you die after that.

this really is the worst movie ever.

more of a vent than a blog...

i had planned on writing this fun blog on my palm springs weekend... with pictures but now i'm over it.

the month of february was sucky, we moved for like 9 weeks and we STILL aren't unpacked... and no one really cares. and since we moved i didn't have time to work on my 2nd job my second job that i really do use as a source of income, not just hey im bored lets have a 2nd job. and then on top of that we didnt have internet at the new house for like 2 weeks so that put me even farther back. to make a long story short i had to do a months worth of work in about a week and a half. no big deal, i can work at my own pace and get a bunch done if i work from 9ish to 9ish on my days off of my other job.

i didnt even meet my normal monthly totals and i was ok with taking that pay cut for the month. i sent everything in to my bosses this morning, after getting home.. only to check my email tonight to find that supposedly over half of the email addresses that i collected have already been "added and paid for". according to the records that i have kept up for the last 8 months that is impossible.

its just really frustrating because its not like i do this for fun. i'm not so extremely independently wealthy that i can not work, especially since im paying rent now. and this is not the first time that i have had difficulties getting paid.... but i love my former teacher now boss. =[ but i am so pissed. =[ ugh.