what did i ever do to YOU?!

ive had a really good week.

tuesday i went to see frank. <4!!! thursday i went to chain reaction where i havent been in SO long, and i laughed... alot. friday a bunch of us went to cassi's play, so amazing. :D and then went roaming around until we decided to light graffiti @ rocketship park. saturday was a horrible day at work. so horrible. :[ and today, sunday was really fun. cassandra came over for lunch and then her, susanna, and i went out to disneyland rode space mountian, bought at concert ticket @ HOB and came home. and then later candice came over, which always makes me happy :]

but now that its 11:46 and im still not done with my homework for the week im feeling really blahish. i thought going to school working in my major was going to be fun. its not. i hate the homework... mostly. sometimes its enjoyable, when i actually get to take pictures. which happens for ONE of my FOUR classes this semester. so i just put everything off till the last minute. which will be midnight tomorrow. and im paying so so so much money for this... its ridiculous. i'm starting to second guess my decision. :| i hate being a grown up and having to make decisions... i always fail at them.

and this is where i will end because if i say anymore i will be breaking my goals.

almost 6 years....

with moving comes packing. and with packing comes memories.

ive been reading old notes, that said we'd be best friends forever, looking through old yearbooks and thanking God im not in high school anymore!! and laughing over old so many old plus one psycho biographys and quizzes and i can't help but see that life is so different from when i was 14. so different.

in the last few hours ive been been thinking that life would be so much eaiser if i was 14 again. no work, constant concerts, volunteering!, always having time for friends, no grown up decisions, and so many other things that i miss! but even though i'm not content and more confused than ever with my life now, at least i have grown past my self loathing and parental drama. lol. its just sometimes, i wish that one day it would get eaiser.

thats all i'm really good for tonight. i am ill and now full of dust and in need of an overdose of nyquil so i can go to sleep now and wake up at a normal hour tomorrow.

and the scoop is i dropped out of community college and will be starting at the academy of art in the summer... unless i get scared and then ill go back to cypress college in the fall.

Academy of Art University

i am very much on my way to dropping out of school... and then restarting school online to get my BFA. i just hope i can get it done before 9:45 when i have to leave for work.

edit: reason 5 million i could never get married. i would never actually make it down the aisle because i get massive cold feet! it has been roughly 12 hours since i posted this and i cant really bring myself to drop my classes or email the advisor i've been talking to because: do i really want to spend this much money to go to school?! UGH!

so if you care to find me look to the western sky

i have been listening to the WICKED soundtrack for the last week and let me tell you i have the biggest desire to go see it now. i was always like eh whatever, but now i am like where is the $70 i need!!!! i am addicted. and i dont even really know what happens... i just love the music!! so much so i built myself a ringtone tonight. =] yay!

school started this past week, and i am torn. between love and loathe. sure it's photography but i hate sitting in classes and my teacher [same for both classes] is looooong winded. good part is i dont have to buy any textbooks this semster! talk about amazazing! i am very seriously looking into going to school here i just wish that i could get some faster answers from them. ugh.

um... zoran brought me a new radio for my car yesterday. i love zoran. i love him extra for giving me a radio that will let me plug my ipod into it!!! hes potentially going to install it for me on saturday when he comes over again to get some pics taken. =]

my newspaper wall is evolving and it makes me happy i love that more and more pople are getting their pics taken in front of it and it is so amazing! i have already started working on my other idea for a newspaper-like wall thats not made of newspaper i'm excited to build that one but i'm thinking i will need to build it inside so i can have more "dramatic" lighting with it... not that anyone cares lol.

i have a much more interesting post built up inside me but i need to relisten to something before i can really make sense of my thoughts.

oh and WE GOT THE HOUSE!!!

dr. philbilly

so i have discovered podcasts. they are amazing. i can 1. get caught up on kevin and bean while i am sitting in traffic... AND 2. i can download services from church to listen to again and again... and to listen to while im in south dakota. its like not missing church at all. =]

and right now im waiting for my film to be developed so i can go to school and make a print thats due tonight. "landscape cityscape" is the assignment. so since im sitting here with nothing really to do... or more likely wasting time... i am watching TV. first the shot... which i must admit is a really good show! the first episode was not impressive... but it has gotten way better and it looks fun! then 2 episodes of my secret addiction.. hannah montana. and now my former addiction [of the non secret variety] gilmore girls.

im really excited for friday. i have the whole day off so i can finish editing nickys pictures, and then i can have my own photoshoots. i have to the option do a self portrait for extra credit and i also have a project called 7 objects that im abnormally excited about that i am going to shoot on friday as well... and entire day of nothing but fun photoshooting.

i will leave with a hannah montana clip.