cheerios. honey nut. so dont worry, my hearts good.

so, im in South Dakota for Christmas... just like every year. and just like every year im sitting in the play room/rec room/not really either of those anymore room wondering what to do. this year i brought 4 seasons of Scrubs with me to watch. i just finished the first last night. its amazing.

since ive literally just been sitting here ive been getting back into looking at photography blogs and getting ever so slightly excited about taking pictures. [kinda a miracle after this last semester lol] while moving from webpage to webpage looking at camera lenses and reading reviews and looking at backdrop stands and photography workshops and and and and and i made an exciting [for me] purchase today! :D



whats more exciting is that it will probably be waiting for me when i get home! :D so its just one more thing to make me excited about HOME! [third only to friends and food of course]

annnnnnd when i get home i'm going to work on building a backdrop stand so i can have portable backdrops [like the very not portable magazine wall] and take fun pictures with that. i cant wait until i can work on all this stuff.



i wish i was home...

I wish for one day everyone would say exactly what someone else needed to hear.

i was planning on never posting another postsecret blog in my life because i was tired of all the angsty responses about how i need to change how i feel. but this brought tears to my eyes and i thought i would share.





-----Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, December 14, 2008 5:18 AM
Subject: timecard you're not alone

My son just wrote Santa last night asking for that special present and I didn't have the heart to tell him that "Santa's" back injury has kept HER from waiting tables the past two weeks .

my secret:
I wish Santa Claus was real so on Christmas no child would have to go without and no parent would have to feel like they failed there child.

-Amber (with permission)


-----Email Message-----
Sent: Monday, December 15, 2008 12:11 AM
Subject: re: timecard you're not alone

I know I cannot do this for every child out there, but if you would tell her that there is someone out there willing to try and buy their son that gift, then I would appreciate it very much.

I am a college student with a limited budget, but it would be a lovely Christmas present for me if I were able to put a smile on the faces of two strangers on Christmas morning.


-----Email Message
Sent: Sunday, December 14, 2008 11:53 PM
Subject: RE: timecard you're not alone

First off let me tell you how thankful I am to you and your wonderful offer. I was not in anyway expecting any sort of help I just wanted to let this person know they were not alone.

Gratefully yours,
-Amber

[Frank's Note:] (I asked Amber to set-up a PayPal account using this email address for those of us wanting to help.)
q.ue_sera_sera@yahoo.com

i'm a holiday failure.

1) Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate?
hot chocolate FERSHER!

2) Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
wrapped presents are so much more amazing than unwrapped ones.

3) Colored lights or white?
i dont really care...

4) Do you hang mistletoe?
nope, i have bought mistletoe though @ the christmas lights they sell it for $1

5) When do you get out your decorations?
whenever my family decides to decorate.

6) Favorite holiday dish, excluding dessert?
um... meh.

7) Favorite holiday memory as a child?
i cant remember my childhood well... but im pretty postive the day i open my bunkbeds this year is going to be the best memory evvvvvver! haha.

8) When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
i really dont remember believing in santa as a child....

9) Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
yep... pjs every year.

10) How do you decorate your trees?
well if it was up to me it would be super cute with purple and green and blue amazing ornaments... but normally we use hallmark ornaments that we've collected over the years although our tree isnt even decorated.

11) Snow, love it or hate it?
love it! until ive been in it for like 2 hours... and then you come inside and your whole body is burning.

12) Can you ice skate?
i'm not pro status or anything.

13) Do you remember your favorite gift?
um.... i dont :[

14) What is the most important thing about the holidays for you?
well... considering thats when Jesus was born thats the positive... otherwise i'm not a christmas' biggest fan.

15) Favorite Holiday dessert?
my aunt makes AMAZING cheesecake!

16) Favorite Christmas tradition?
???

17) What tops your tree?
nothing at the moment... usually a star.

18) What's better giving or receiving?
GIVING! i haaaaaaaate getting gifts!

19) Favorite Christmas song?
um. i like that one amazing relient k song... i forget what its called. and.. then the plus one christmas cd is the only christmas songs i listen to. LOL

20) Candy Canes, yummy or yucky?
yucky. i am a holiday failure.

21) What do you want for Christmas?
bunk beds.

22) Do you attend an annual Christmas Party?
yep, the christmas banquet @ church. tomorrow baby!

23) Do you dress up for Christmas eve?
nope.

24) Do you own a Santa Hat?
i think i have at some point in my life but i don't anymore.

25) Who do you normally spend Christmas with?
my family in south dakota.

you're not allowed to molest people in line. there's not enough room!

so, i'm working on HW tonight... kinda out of character for me. considering i put it all of to the last second possible usually. but i have big plans @ 1am tuesday morning so im trying to get some stuff done early. :] anyway i'm working on an assignment for my color photography class that has me searching on google for photographs taken at night that used artifical lighting. and i came across this.



it made me extremely excited. why? you ask... well because i went there. we stopped on the way home from june lake this summer. its just an abandoned gas station on the outskirts of a super small town. but i insisted we pull over and have a mini photoshoot.



its kind of sad to look at too. it reminds me so much of summer, when we had time to go play. we could drive for 2 days to spend less than 24 hours in one place... the laughing and giggling over the stupid things we did for fun... not just june lake but the whole summer. illionis, bonfires, washington, june lake, swirl offs, bars (;]), and photoshoots. i can honestly say that this was one of the best summers of my life, and i dont know that next summer will be anything like this last one. actually it could be the complete opposite not opposite in it will be the worst summer ever, but opposite in the fact that everyone could be gone. :/ yes. i got all that from one random picture.

i want to take pictures like that.

i think i have a coupon.... WOAH what are they doing!?

so. i just got back from borders. where i spent $7.78 on a bouncy ball. i love it with all of my heart. it is indeed the bouncy ball of my dreams. and it is extra super special because an oh-so-amazing borders employee gave me 20% off just because i said i didnt want to spend more than $5, so he was totally trying to help me out. but i cant help but think.... eff. i just spent $8 on a bouncy ball. what a freaking retard! i think it means i cant dye my hair until i get paid again.... because instead of spending money on myself... i should have been spending it on christmas presents. i think that counts as an epic fail for me. :[



but i love it so much.

you say "we" but you'll be dead!!

maggie tagged me so here we go.

the rules are that when you are tagged you have to share 7 things about yourself and then tag 7 other people...


1. my room is filthy. there are clothes everywhere... along with camera bags and disco balls.

2. until like last year i never knew that the escalator at IKEA was actually outside. i think it was last christmas i was there and it was windy and i was like WTF what is going on!? and i realized i was outside... not inside...

3. i send/recieve approx. 200 text messages per day.

4. the only time i have ever had "surgery" was to get my wisdom teeth removed and on the list of things you had to do one was remove all nail polish... but i forgot to take off my toenail polish so i was freaking out. and jim came with me that day.

5. everytime i sit down to work on homework... i want to fall asleep. everytime. even if i just woke up. or if i got 24 hours of sleep the night before... its just a natural reflex.... time for homework... nap time! like now.

6. my knee has been twitching for over 24 hours. it is kinda freaking me out.... my mom coworker told me it was probably because of stress. pssssh. *i'm* not stressed.

7. i started working on this on saturday morning and it is monday afternoon. this was super hard for me because the things people dont know about me are super personal. LOL.


and like everyone else... ive run out of people to tag... because we all have the same friends haha. so if anyone hasnt done this yet. consider yourself offically tagged.

dont you mean W.O.W. as in world of warcraft?

i have purple hands right now, and everytime i see them they make me smile. :D <-- like that. and i ***reeeeeally*** want to dye my hair like haleys from paramore in this video next. i know its kinda that color now... but i want it a darker... but brighter red... when im not in the sun too. that doesnt even make sense. lol.

Paramore - New Music - More Music Videos

i'm really excited about "the house next door"... and it makes me sad that we dont know 6 people. and that i have other obligations that could cause me to actually not be able to move out. annnnd. i so dont want to go to work tomorrow. i wish i could switch with someone and work in the morning because i *really* dont want things to be awkward. i am dreading the hours between 4 and 6. :[ epic fail on my part.